Perhaps God is the Father that loved you, but then left you alone. Perhaps you don't dare get close to God because he will leave you anyway. Perhaps He is that 911 call in the middle of the night to take care of the really big things, but the small things, you'll manage on your own.
Perhaps God is the Father that abused you mentally and physically and told you you were never good enough, you never did anything right, and you were worthless. Perhaps you view God as an abuser and you would rather stay as far away from Him as possible because if you make Him mad, which you often feel you do, you don't want to get hit or called names.
Maybe God is unstable...there one moment and here the next, depending on the situation and the hurts involved, perhaps we run and come back like a battered spouse.
Maybe God is the one that has held you in poverty all your life. Living day to day, never able to catch a break, falling further and further in debt. Keeping you held down while those around you are enjoying their life and getting the best of everything. Taking trips around the world, sipping martini's on the beaches in the Caribbean with loads of friends and smiling faces.
Perhaps God is the one to blame for what happened to that person in your life that you held the most dear and that person suffered an illness and was taken away from their family.
Maybe God is the friend that you trusted with all your heart and then turned around and betrayed you so badly that it left a scar. Maybe you don't trust God's direction in your life, because He always leads you to people that have their own agenda and are not afraid to use you to get where they are going.
Maybe you see God as the most loving God in the world and you've always been well protected and nurtured, until one day something devastating happens, and you don't understand why God would do this to you.
Maybe you view God as building you up and then tearing it all back down. Maybe you've gotten so far in life and then it gets taken away. Maybe it's happened so often you believe that this is some kind of sick joke.
All these things are real possibilities and there's many others. The truth is, these are our OPINIONS of who God is. None of these examples hold any truth, although they feel very true to us. Satan is a great deceiver. If we do not know the truth about God, we will fall for any lies, and we may fall for these lies, most all our life. A habit only takes 21 days to form...chances are, we've formed a lot of habits based on pure Satanic lies. I know because I still live in several. I never try to preach to you. You have no reason to trust me, and I wouldn't want you to. It's too much for me to handle, I am just looking to live life with you. I simply want to help point you and myself to the one that holds true. Sometimes getting it out on paper in front of you, helps me see it too.
New International Version (NIV)
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.