I think the thing about Christianity, for me, at least, is that it is a process of learning, relearning, training and preparing for two things.
1) Loving God with all your mind, heart and soul
2) Loving your neighbor as yourself.
Satan is so interesting...he will find, and it is his job, to find, every dark spot in our hearts. And I promise, I have a lot.
One of the spots he has been picking at, in my heart, currently, is that dark spot of "offense". Oh goodness the havoc Satan has been able to feed me during this season of training and learning. But at the same time, I know that He (Jesus) who lives within me (my heart) is greater than he (Satan) who lives in the world (my flesh).
This morning I'm fully aware of an offense that has crept in to cause discord. One of my biggest passions, is spending time with people. I have a love and desire to be with people. My personality profile suggests that my desire is to capture the hearts of all the people I meet, so you can see how big this passion is in my life. But if I were to take a look at how much time I spend alone, verses with people, or the number of people I reach out to verses the people that respond or contact me for a simple, "hello, I'm thinking about you." reason, I could begin to get very melancholic, very fast. It is this type of thinking and perspective that could easily send me spiraling downward on a slippery slope just oiled, to hell, and fast!
Sometimes, I believe that we rely on people for things only God can provide. When we do this, we can become desperately hurt and or bitter. We can blame others for things that truly is only in our hearts and only seen through our perception. Just because God placed the desire he did in my heart, does not mean that other people see the world through my lenses.
I'm desperately in love with reading the Laura Ingalls-Wilder books. I'm fascinated by the life styles, the work ethics, the family values and the severe hardships they endured. When I say severe, I mean, there is no way we could manage one day living the life they did then. We are much too spoiled and much too weak. They provided the land of milk and honey by hard work and paving the way for us to whine and complain about not being millionaires by the time we are 18, or getting ourselves in such financial debt that we will live as slaves to the banks the rest of our lives.
I also find it fascinating that they lived most of their time alone, taking care of their family and their property. They worked their entire life in severe conditions, focusing on the Lord, their family and the provisions God provided them. They worked with their bare hands and trusted in the Lord and the Word of God in all their days.
Friends, as I look at my own dirty heart, I'm thankful that God provides the answers and has been doing so, since the beginning of time. If we look at ourselves, we will be depressed, but if we turn to Jesus we will be lifted up!
Make sure you know who you are following.