I will never forget the New Year 2006.... 13 days after that, actually. January 13th, Friday the 13th. I owned BuYah's. I had a pizza party, karoke, pool tournaments and other such fun planned for the school kids at my bar. But that day held different plans for me. I had uncovered a dark secret and it ripped my heart open and my life fell apart. Bottom out, completely dropped out, and my life would be forever changed. I needed a new beginning, desperately...without it, my life would take a major turn. My lifestyle finally caught up to my family and it was time to make a choice, either loose my family, or continue my lifestyle.
I decided on a new beginning. I locked the doors of my old life and I asked God to take over.
But let me challenge you, new beginnings are hard...
Think of your new years resolutions... how many of them have you actually kept? Seriously think about it. How many? Well... new beginnings in Christ are no different. You have to continually make choices that your friends and family are not making. It's a personal journey, one no one can do for you. You have to start working at learning how to live different, you loose friends, you try to find ones that will support your new life. When your lifestyle no longer matches those of your friends, it seperates you. It shouldn't have to be that way, but really, as an addict will tell you...you can't frequent the places, or hang with the same people that kept you in your addiction. You gotta do things different. You have to learn to be a light...because you are not the only one trapped in bondage...you have to be a warrior, one that will not only be obedient, but will eventually birth other warriors.
You have to start listening for truth, and you will find quickly that "truth" is not actually what your bold and outspoken friends say about your weight, your clothes or your lifestyle. You know the saying "the truth hurts". No...truth is not your bold friends opinions...although you might have conditioned your mind to believe so.
Truth is Gods word... you have to study it. You have to get to know God. You have to learn to hear his voice. It's a hard walk...it is. Not because it hurts, because I promise you walking with God is anything but hurtful... it's stripping yourself of your old lifestyle, your tainted belief system, your past scars and your confusion as you unwind all the garbage you've enclosed your life in prior.
New beginnings are hope, love, change, struggle, challenge, confusing, exciting, breathtaking and a massive roller coaster ride of ups and downs.
Hold on... 2017 is full of them.
Proverbs 1 (NIV)
Purpose and Theme
1 The proverbs of Solomon son of David, king of Israel:
2 for gaining wisdom and instruction;
for understanding words of insight;
3 for receiving instruction in prudent behavior,
doing what is right and just and fair;
4 for giving prudence to those who are simple,
knowledge and discretion to the young--
5 let the wise listen and add to their learning,
and let the discerning get guidance--
6 for understanding proverbs and parables,
the sayings and riddles of the wise.
7 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge,
but fools despise wisdom and instruction.