The last week, a simple memory down the "past lane" set the pace for the rest of my week. I'm here to tell you that the entire week fell apart on me, simply because all my reactions resulted from the past, and that's how I approached all obstacles in my way. We overspent, forgot to pay bills, work situations came up, my children had issues, friends had needs, family had needs, and I responded to most with reactions from the past views. You can not possibly come up with anything good when your focus is on the destroyers in your life instead of the Redeemer.
I thought about where I was at in my healing process, and I'm not where I'd hoped I would be. My main focus was on forgiveness and I thought I had gotten there, but with the reaction I had from my brief "memory down the past lane" I came to the conclusion I hadn't. I was like the scene in the picture, with some things standing strong, like the solid barn, some things fallen apart like the silo, and the house was gone.
Praying about it, I had forgiven, that was not my issue. The issue was what the situation had done to me personally on the inside. Where it left me and my view on the world. There were still a lot of pieces I need to pick up, and I had simply left them laying there because I didn't see a reason to clean them up. I had forgotten that during that time in my life, I had shattered my "self esteem" lenses and stomped on them in a million tiny pieces. But that's ok, I wouldn't need them anyway, I had to worry about forgiveness and taking care of my family, and with that, all things would be ok.
Until they aren't.
I've been through and promoted a lot of hurts in my life and others lives. I harbor many that are still lying in pieces for what they've done inside me. I've dealt with forgiveness, but it's the rest of the shattered pieces I have to tend to. I bet you have some too.
You are hearing it here first. I'm shifting my focus on a new book for a bit. It's time for me to pick up my pieces on this issue. I would love to have your help. If you are willing to confidentially share your heart on the topic of adultery, please go to my contact page and let me know your story, your thoughts, what got you through, what hung you up. I'd like to use them to help heal others. No one else can see your information as it will come directly to me without being posted on the site.
Thanks friends! Keep encouraging others, together and through Christ, we can move mountains!