I don't have it together. Rarely. That's why I'm always digging in the Bible to see what I'm supposed to do after I mess everything up. It's true!
One thing I always thought I was good at, however, is loving people. Which is absolutely true! I love to encourage. If I see a hurting heart, I am like a magnet and there to lift you up. I can't stand seeing sadness, I can't stand seeing hurts..... until I get hurt. If you hurt me, my amazing nature of mine draws back in, to safe places and away from everyone to avoid hurting anyone with my hurt heart. I've listened to all those lessons on people like me. Those "emotional life suckers" they call me. I think I could be considered one of those passive/aggressive too. Sit and not say anything, nod your head and smile and then go home and cry when you are alone. I don't take any sort of revenge however, I just pull away.
Why am I sharing this? Not because I want pity, I hate pity. I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me, and I would venture to guess most people don't. I'm saying this because one thing I know for certain is I don't have it together, but I will search for truth and when I find it, I will overcome it. If you are looking at me as someone who has it all together, you best change your perspective. God has it all together, and that's where I go to find it.
A song came on this morning while I dropped my sons off at the bus. Instantly I cried. I can relate and recall what it was like in some tough times growing up, but I always knew that everything would be wonderful someday. God was true to his word. I could smile with tears in my eyes and say "everything is wonderful now."One way or another, God who created relationships, family, unity, has the answers we seek to bring order to the chaos of a broken heart, a broken world. I really believe if we seek His answers and wisdom we will find the pearl in the field and will sell all else to take ownership of it.
“The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.