I can't help but remember several years ago sitting in church and getting a vision of a white ribbon being wrapped around my heart. It reminded me of like a crisp clean sanitary bandage being wrapped around a gaping bleeding and exposed wound. I remember knowing that the white ribbon felt to me like a representation of Christ and that my heart was a representation of the brokenness I felt in my life at that very moment. I remember thinking that God was about to heal my heart from a very open and gaping wound in my life. I remember "knowing" specifically it was about ONE major event in my life and knowing that that ONE thing was going to be instantly healed....because I had a "God Moment", and when God Moments happen instantaneous healing follows...
Fast forward several years and several very desperately needed "God Moments" later and I can tell you that "instantaneous healing" was more, way more than just that ONE situation. It was also very far from instantaneous, it was a series of test after test after test, intended for a bigger purpose...to build the character of Christ in me and for me and for the purpose of His kingdom.
You see, if that healing would have ended for me for that ONE specific moment in time and for that time only, I would have never sustained the many other heartbreaks that occurred, or reoccurred over and over again. The world is full of intentional and unintentional hurts. Life is made up of a million choices each day, a million opportunities to react, a million challenges to overcome. Alone, we are victims to those circumstances, yet with Christ we are victors.
Several times between the wrapping of my heart and today, I made several choices for and not for my walk with Christ. There were times I chose to separate from my church family, I chose several times to isolate in my wounded state, I also chose to take up several offenses. All this after I gave my life to Christ and was truly walking with Him. Just because we give our lives for Christ, doesn't mean we are instantaneously perfect like Him. We continually have to grow, to study, to read the Word, and to learn how to not allow our interpretations through our lenses of our own experiences, taint the Truth of His Word.
Today I smiled and poured out my thankfulness to Him for continually healing me, as he will you, as if one day were a thousand and a thousand were like one day.