I called my very dear mentor friend and I poured out the scenario. Do you know what my friend did? He pointed me to scripture, and I understood and received exactly the message he gave me.
When you take the world out of view and you place Christ in your view, life changes. The situation might not change right away, but your life changes. It's hard friends. I know, I was up from 1:02 a.m. until past 3:36 a.m. last night. My brain would not quit going back to all my current challenges. I was trying to solve them in the natural, so I began to pray in the spiritual, asking God for those things I needed to learn and face and resolve this situation at hand. Sometimes we have to go through things, sometimes we have to confront, and sometimes we have to stand firm. This is a very hard learning curve for me. But God will simply keep teaching it until I have it, so I might as well walk it through.
What I like the most about the Spirit, is that the Spirit is for everyone. The Spirit is very fair and very much loves us all. The Spirit will never pick things just in your favor, He seeks out the heart of all and he finds a way to make a way for all. I know when I pray to God, he sees the situation, not just my prayer. He takes my little tiny, itty bitty view point and he tugs at my heart strings and he shapes me and molds me and puts me on the potters wheel. He changes me, but during the same time, he creates a whole solution that we will possibly never see. God is just good like that.
1 Corinthians 2:6-16New International Version (NIV)
We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing. No, we declare God’s wisdom, a mystery that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began. None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. However, as it is written:
“What no eye has seen,
what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”--
the things God has prepared for those who love him--
these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.
The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who knows a person’s thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. What we have received is not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may understand what God has freely given us. This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, explaining spiritual realities with Spirit-taught words. The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit. The person with the Spirit makes judgments about all things, but such a person is not subject to merely human judgments, for,
“Who has known the mind of the Lord
so as to instruct him?”
But we have the mind of Christ.