I would sincerely love to sit down with soldiers and hear them out, share hope with them. I would love to sit in prisons and listen to those stories. It's always been my passion. I'd love to be able to point them to the Savior and then share their story through writing. Perhaps one day, God will open those doors. Maybe he won't. Until then I have my story.
Yesterday was an interesting day for me. I struggled with some internal issues and they wouldn't seem to go. I worked on the website, I cleaned a bit and I even went out to dinner, but found it hard to shake my emotions. We do a Bible study each night with the kids and I crawled in to snuggle with my boys and I started to give one of my "life lessons". Teaching moments, preparation for the future. I stopped and said. "Listen, not all lives are hard, not all lives have issues. Some people go out there, have no cares in the world, they don't understand all the "drama" because they don't have any.
This sat with me, I got to thinking about my current audience, and my story, how it hasn't been perfect and how I did make mistake and how more than likely many can not relate. Sometimes you start to rethink what you are doing in life. Maybe I sound like a broken record. Sometimes you can think you can tell what people are thinking, sometimes they actually say things. But then I remembered my 10 day goal. Find someone that has a need and meet it. Usually it doesn't take more than 10 days, however sometimes it does.
There's people out there with needs, they need answers.
This morning I prayed on it. I asked God about it. Sometimes we need to be encouraged and get nudged to keep going.
God said: When Jesus heard this, he told them, "Healthy people don't need a doctor--sick people do. I have come to call not those who think they are righteous, but those who know they are sinners." Mark 2:17