A drastic curve that came out of the darkness and into the light.
You realize that you are smack dab in a situation that you most certainly prayed for, but now you wish you didn't. It's not comfortable here. There is no support, there is no joy, there is no positive outlooks, there is no energy. It is a place that you couldn't wait to get to, God put you there, you are sure of it, or at least you were sure. Now, perhaps you are thinking, "I must have missed it." "I must have run right through the stop signs and allowed myself to go my own way because God would NEVER put me in a place like this.
Your spirit is crushed, you feel trapped on every side. You seek God. You beg him to open some other door. Get me out of this place. But for some reason, you are trapped here by something that holds you fast. You start to feel like God has abandoned you because you must have made a poor choice somewhere. You must have slipped into a temptation and now you are paying for it. It starts to change your outlook. You start to pull away from those that support and love you because of course no one can help you out of bad situation that you must have deserved. You must have gotten greedy, weak, listened to the world and blew past God...because God loves you, he wouldn't put you here.
Then your Son wakes you out of your circumstantial self inflicted depression to say, "Mom, remember when I was having a tough time in school. I was getting bullied and it went on for 2 years, and you kept encouraging me and telling me that if I just held on, that I would see that God was going to make things better if I just trusted. Remember when you told me that perhaps I was placed there, not to harm me, but because God was strengthening me? Remember how sad I was? Well look at me now Mom, everything worked out. God took care of it. Mom, perhaps your character is being strengthened. Perhaps God put you in that place so that you could overcome some things in your life."
Out of the darkness and into the light....
Perhaps. Perhaps we are placed in situations that are uncomfortable, joyless, hopeless and painful. Not because we deserve it, yet we do, but because in those places, we find a way to seek God out so intensely so dependently, that it's most certainly in those times we find comfort, joy, hope and healing, through the only one that can save us.