Yes, I was pouting. But still valid points and raw emotion and a very common reaction when things go wrong for me. Maybe I'm the only one in the world that does this. I'm just being honest and blunt with you because then I can be honest and blunt with myself. I'm not saying it's right or wrong, I'm saying as a Christian, I can and do get frustrated and I love Jesus more than anything. Does that mean I'm not a Christian if I don't understand it all or have it all put together? Well that is what some would like you to think isn't it.
Truth is, I don't have the answer to why things like this happen. Why people can pray for success and get it, and others struggle. While some people live in poverty and some in riches, while some people are healed while others are not. I like the response that Jesus gave when his disciples sought out a reason that the man was Blind. They saw the blindness as a punishment, because they asked Jesus who's sin caused it, his own or his parents. Jesus answered it was so that the works of God might be displayed in him.
So that the works of GOD might be displayed in him.
Arise, O Lord! O God, lift up Your hand! Do not forget the humble. Why do the wicked renounce God? He has said in his heart, "You will not require an account."